Well, this week wasn't the greatest of weeks. Carmen got over her cold well enough to start day care. It turns out it wasn't the best decision I have ever made. I dropped her off at about 9am, and she seemed happy and there were no tears. Then I got a call from them at 9:45 saying that she had just had morning tea, and was very happy. And then I went to pick her up at noon. When I got there, she was sitting on the floor in a kind of daze, holding on to a toy, and doing these great heaving sob breaths. She looked at me and at first didn't even register that I was there. Then she came up to me, and her face crumpled, and she put her hands on either side of my face and held them there, looking at me. So I picked her up, and she could not stop doing those breaths. They told me that she had been 'unsettled' for most of the morning, that she had cried since I hung up the phone all the way through to 11 o'clock, and then on and off until I got there, and when she wasn't crying, she was just sitting being quiet, which was how I found her. Oh, the guilt!! They said it is fairly normal behaviour, but I have never seen Carmen so internally distressed as that day. It would have been different if she was acting up or throwing a tantrum, but she was just in her own little bubble. After a lot of thought and opinions from many people, I have decided to wait until she is older to try again, and I feel so much relief! I just feel horrible that I put her through that at all :( I couldn't stop thinking about it for days. She just looked so lost and sad, it broke my heart.
And then after that drama, Jeff came down with Carmen's cold and had time off work, and then I came down with it! So, not such a great week!
But, on a fun note, we are entering Carmen into the Bond's baby photo competition for people's choice, and I need you guys to choose a photo from the ones from this week below. Thanks!
This is a close-up of the last photo
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